We the people tell that hard work will bring success. But I dont know, whether it will bring success me or not. I worked hard all my nights and days for the last six months to make an idea for my doctoral work. I had collected a lot of literatures and printed it out, then gone through on each and every line thorougly . Finally I made an idea and prepared a project proposal to submit for UGC and another for DST.(I need to get a project, other wise I cannot go ahead with my doctoral degree). I did not have any other palan other than my goal. I toiled a lot. finally I submitted a proposal to my guide. I dont know how will you feel, if you have toiled for six months and the results copy another person without doing anything. He would have spent only nearly 10 rupees to take xerox copy of and guide spent only a few minutes to read it. The same thing happened to my case also. I am also human being, if it was a copy of other persons work, I would not have felt like this. But It was my original plan and idea. I went home last week with this sad feelings.
I forgot that feelings and expected good while I reached home. After two years, I agreed my mother to stitch new shirts and pants. They were happy when they heard my change of mind. I have got two shirts and pants to stitch and that time I saw a falsh of happiness on thier face. I spent hlaf of the day with my sister's children. M fathe was re-aranging our garden to to fill with grass. My grand father's (father's father) biopsy result also came, he got a prostate cancer.
I dotn know how to express in words the love I got from my family, when I gone to my mother's home, grand father called me into his room and asked my future plan, aboutmy marriage, job and everything. It was not new thing tome. I know that , I am the only person talking him very freely. His children including my mother also fear to talk with him and many of time they convey the messages through me. He respected me and love me. I discussed everything as before, in the middle he gave me 200 rupees and I rejected it then opened his table drawer and took out a rado watch ( he got it as a present from his brother's son) andgave me by telling to to sell it. It costs nearly 15 thousands and he told me to use the money for my education and made an agreement that not to tell anybody. I told him that I dont want it, and I will get money from others and other source. He compelled me a lot. How can I get money from him. and he promised that he will arrange money when i come there next time.
I came college with all the happiness and love.
yea...life is hard to live.....
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