Thursday, 21 August 2008

A toughest decision

Days went very fast by stamping its mark on me, on my thoughts and my body as well. During the last days I met a number of happy events and sad events. Life is a mixture of these two things, ups and downs. I can see the last minute feelings of my MPhil friends on thier face and on thier pace. Even me also have the same feeling of departure. After two months, new friends come to join with us. I dont know, how they are going to influence me. The friends of this batch are very close to me, especially Babitha, I knew her from MSc, while she was doing MSc in Karpagam College with my dearest Sajesh. The closeness I felt with Prajisha Chechi, Srija and Pragatheeswaran are remarkable and unforgettable. They were with me all my odd times during this year and the taste of the lunch they brought from thier room is still with my tounge. They shared me thier happiness and sadness with me and I also with them. They were generous when I ask them money and they have taught me what love is.

After a debate with my father,they postponed their decision to marry off my third sister before joining to UG Degree. Father joined her for Microbiology degree to make me happy and he went to KSA after two days of this event. I have got money from Aslam for my research. He believed my strength and my words, I am in debt of half of one lakh now. I also believe in my strength and capacity, otherwise God would not come infront of me.
This week was very toughest to me, I dont know how to pass this ardous time. I have to take a decision regarding my sister marriage. Taking a decision is very difficult when it affect another person's life. They have got a very good proposal from a well settled person, but they are not ready to send her to college. My sister aspire to do degree and me also, but generally girls have no voice in my village. They follow thier parents vision with burrying their dream in thier deepest of their heart. All are OK with the alliance and left the final decision to me. It is very difficult to take a decision about this. I consulted her but she told me to tell my decision to father and mother. I decided to go with her dream and to end the proposal here. The main reason behind my decision was my love towards her and her dreams. I dont know why my society fear to send their girl child to college. The world view after completing degree course will be different than staying with plus two course itself. It will increase thier confidence level and make them bold. It is true that some people are there without any change after completing college education, eventhough the college education can make little impact on the life of the house making ladies.
I called Sajesh and Neetha to know how would be thier stand on this situation. They also supported my perception and brought one important thing in to my mind that it may bring worries in my future and they added to think positive. I am also positive, but it is with life, it is with ups and downs. I have been called again to home to discuss about it.

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