Saturday, 4 October 2008

…..that I forgot to tell you dear…

I did not know why you had thrown all of the gifts in front of me that I had presented you. I did not know why you had busted your heart in front of me. I understood that you were not weeping or crying but screaming when other friends entered into the class room and caught my shirt’s collar. I did not know why you had behaved like that. You know that I struggled a lot to make others understand that situations, because there was nobody knew me better than you. I was alone with you that time in the class room. You came before me and occupied your seat near to that window facing to the conference hall and principal’s room. As usual, I entered at my time before others and seated near you in my chair. I asked you that why you did come early, did not I?. It was the day after I told you that I was in love with ‘She’.

I was surprised and shocked why you had thrown every thing to ground, did not you know that my heart would also be broken with that mud cups that I presented you after my Jaipur trip. You were murmuring that “you know, I was keeping all the gifts you presented me on my table. I read the cards every morning and evening. It was to remember you every day”. Then you started to weep. Do you remember that, you did not talk me or even a smile me after that day for a month. I used to smile and say ‘Hi’ but you did not. Even though, you had sat near me with turning your face away from me. Do you know why I did not left you that time?. I continued to do like that without bothering other friend’s comments to stop it? Do you remember that others insulted me for doing like that, yet I continued? Because I knew that you were smiling inside your heart and you were my friend.

Do you remember that, we fought each and every second of the days for silly matters? Once you argued for a word “begging”, had not you? I knew that you were enjoying every fight with me as I was. I was your “Abdul Ikka”. How I can celebrate my birthday without remembering you, because you were the first person to wish me for my birthday and you presented me a birthday card first time in my life.

I don’t know whether you remember or not that you have astonished me once again by offering all your salary until I complete my course when I was facing a terrible financial problem. You asked me return only the bus fare to go for your working place not the whole money or interest for it. You encouraged me to go with my plans without bothering money and you stood behind me like a pole star during my horrific times. Did you know that the strength that you given me by your words were much bigger than any material matters?

You taught me how to become a friend and how to express love and compassion. You asked me every time “saappittiyaada? (have you had food?)” and you compelled me to have food many times. Do you know that I got the same kindness from my mother only, who cared about my food and health every time as you were. Do you remember that you used to tell me that “She” did not love me and you obliged me many times to concentrate on my studies. It took a long time to realize your words and you know that I regret for not considering your words in that matter. You were a friend of friendly and lovable heart. I don’t know whether you have noticed that, it was drizzling and the trees were dropping May flowers over your head when you were leaving the college campus.

The lesson I have learned from you is a lesson for my life. I became more compassionate and adorable because of your presence. I do not know whether you were weeping or not, but I was crying for leaving a friend like you when you waved your hands while you were leaving me and the college. That time, my heart was praising the God for giving me a friend like you and for making me a best friend of you. Really I missed a friend like you dear friend that I forgot to tell you my dear ……

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